Dunno.

Sex sounds good right about now o.o too bad i have to wait till the 21st . I feel like writing a blog just because of the simple fact that i can. There isn't really much to write about, but i will find something to write about. Everyone i know is either having a baby or has had one recently and i think its pretty cool, just proves that finally i am in the stage where it is okay to get married and live a happy life as a mother and a wife. Some of my family members nag me about when i will have children.. i am only 18 but they still think i should have one within the next 3 years, thats how my family is, they have children young. But i don't want to be like them, i want to have a child with someone i know i will love forever and he will equally love me the same.. for me and my children. Some of them have had children with the one they love, and others have not. I don't want to have a child with someone then a few years later be with someone else, just doesn't seem right in my eyes. I didn't really cherish childhood as much as i should of, it seems like those days have been long gone but it has only been a few years. I matured quicker than i wanted i moved out before 18 and when i was 15 i was in relationships that lasted years and not weeks. I don't regret much from my past, i am where i am now and i am very happy, nothing more i could ask for. Except maybe a very well paying job, but who doesn't want that?

I kinda wish I was a wizard/witch like in Harry Potter, life would be so interesting and neat. I know i would never grow bored of the many things i could learn. And I'd be able to where a cape and not be considered a super hero. Hogwarts would be amazing, i have always fancied school that require uniforms.. thats how it was in Arkansas when i lived there, it made life easier and no one was judged so much. Well.. except when i got there they categorized me as a goth kid (emo wasn't really used back then) only because i wore more eyeliner than the other girls. There were rumors i sacrificed small animals to the devil or something lame like that.