oops

Forgot this thing existed until i went and read Kyles blog. Maybe i'll start doing this again :/

On the road again

Heading to Arizona to chill with family and friends, 863miles o.o you obviously can tell I am bored, Chris is driving and I have NOTHING to do and I ate all mah cookies! :(

puzzler

Need to find stress relief now, ugh.

So about that one thing

I shouldn't be blogging, hell i shouldn't even be awake. I don't even know if i am capable of using proper grammar at the moment. Figured since i have a SHIT TON of crap on my mind and the only way for me to not stay up until the sun rises while i think of pointless ways i can deal with my fucked up problems/emotions etc.. is for me to blog, just a little bit.

So many things have changed in the past few months.. more than i could explain in text, i could probably talk for hours upon hours about what happened just in this last month. Not in an excited manner but life does have its up and downs.
So in about 3-4 months i will no longer be living in this awesome hell hole we call Klamath Falls, no hard feelings this town has done many wonders for me i have found Love, friends, family.. that i would never want to forget (some of them i would).
I will taking the 5 hour drive up north to the big city of Portland, Oregon. Oh joy.
Sure i am pretty excited to go, a new exciting place, not Klamath.. Let me repeat that NOT KLAMATH FUCKING FALLS! I will be leaving a few important things.. my Dan.. even though it is not easy and i am getting all teary eyed thinking about it right at this moment (time to hold back the tears and be a big girl) I am going to try my hardest to succeed and get my degree at PSU and do what i want with my life.
Me and Dan will still be together, sorry i dont want sympathy i know its hard to have a long distant relationship.. very hard. But i will be in the same state not too far from home sweet home (twitches) and hell! maybe i just need to get this big city obsession out of me and i will come crawling/begging back to Klamtucky that i have grown to love so much.



This will be my first time living on my own (Very possible roommate needed) but nonetheless i will have a job and be supporting myself, right now would be a good time to find a sugar daddy or a real rich family member thats wants to hand over a very large sum of cash to pay for my boarding and tuition. But i think i am way excited for the fact i will have my own place, not that i don't have my own place now.. owning a house in all.. oops, but i mean a place decorated to my tastes and not looking all bachelor-like. What i would really like is a studio apartment, yea one of those little tiny things where a little wall separates the living room and kitchen from the bedroom, no doors. oh yea! one more thing.. and in the heart of Portland RIGHT SMACK DAB in the middle, i am not easily bothered by traffic noise.. actually the only noise i want to stay away from is gun shots and small children (possibly adults) screaming.
I think me and Dan are better than that to just end a almost 4 year long relationship over a distance issue. Especially over something that i need to do. I NEED to try college. I NEED to get out of town. Even if its just for a term.. just so i know i tried.. and if he held me back and i never tried i don't want to look back and be like.. "What if.." I don't want to resent my soon-to-be husband because he wouldn't let me leave Klamath to go to college. I have nothing to hold me back.. no children.. no job.. Just Dan.. and i think he would understand more than anyone that i need to do this.
I know its not going to be easy, there will be a few fights (few hundred) but we make up quickly and move on quicker.
Just as long as he knows i love him more than anything in on the entire planet (even though he will guilt trip me all to hell!) we will stay strong.

right now

I really wish i knew who hit my sisters.
I really wish i knew who took a picture of my sister in the hospital and sent it around to people.
So i could fucking beat the shit out of them.


And i am really disappointed in a few people who helped send that picture around, seriously fuck you.

What if you were in the hospital, laying there helpless all bloody.. do you want someone to take a fucking picture of you looking like that and send it around to friends and even people you hate? no, probably not. Think about what you do next time, fucking pricks.

Life sucks.
Hardcore.

But at the same time, I love it.

Maybe its time for another

I always forget about this blog thingy of mine, and its so much more convenient to type then to write, so why dont i blog more often?

Anyways, almost moved into the new house fully YAY!
I'm so close to almost being married, YAY! again.

Well i used to say i have no life but i do, really.
used to think that i didnt keep in touch with people but i try, a lot. But most are to much drama now a days and act to childish for me. I am an old lady now. :p and most dont even answer texts anymore, super lame.


bah my feet are cold im gonna head to bed.